“What girlfriend?” The line printed on my friends’ shirt is my main theme of discussion 5munits ago... but some sort of force [could be the milk] altered my desire and mood… [A double minded person is unstable in all he does, har har!] So I’ll just save it for some other day. God knows when, since I’m not the net freak type. Well of course, besides the extensive inquiring of ayz [my dog…kidding!!!] me not maximizing LJ. Just can’t seem to find time now days.
I’m not really in the writing mode at this moment, well, I rarely am.
What I usually in the mood to do is ask questions to God, my self, people around me, my cell leader, the manang in the canteen and at times my dog[I wish I have one]… that I’m not even sure there’re answers. It’s quite intriguing how the mind can think of the life changing inventions and gizmos and also come up with the silliest reasoning and dumbest decisions. Wait till you see what the heart can do.haha!
Well, as Christians, being assured of your purpose should be inevitable. But still at times you can’t help but to ask why things aren’t going the way they should be. Like why do you have to bite your nails if u can use a nail cutter and have them manicured? Wasn’t the moon made for the sky? Like why do birds fly and not elephants? And why do my brothers get to have new mobile phones [lined] and me still jammed on pre-paids? Not making much of a sense to you huh? It does speak clearly to me…
…fact is, most questions are really not meant to be answered…
…Identity comes when you know were you’re from. You can only find it with your creator. Then questioning and probing for the answers would be futile.
At the end of the day, what matter is how you see God in everything that you do and experience. could have been a rough day, not to include the hell of impossible people you’ve run into [not much of a choice], the pressure of school, your disciples not showing up on your meetings, the adversity of swallowing your pride every time you try to minister to people, self control in the battle of purity and holiness [convictions], having patience for the long wait in line for jeep on to my 7:30am class, withstanding peer pressure, forgiving the taxi driver who wont give you a ride when you say “Gabriela silang po manong,” and most of all, shutting my mouth when I’m about to explode…
… but focusing on pleasing God and what He wants you to do, experiencing His love and grace for you, that He never loose sight on what you do and your mighty purpose in Him awaits, That, in all of your problems he carries you. understanding that Jesus won’t give you anything you can’t bare, that He loves you more than Himself that He will give you the best life you could ever imagine, exceeding even your own expectations, believing that at the end of the race you’ll finished strong and finally experience His glory…
… you’ll just say at the back of your mind…”it’s all worth it…it’s definitely worth it”
…if you would just allow Him to work in your life
… No compromises
[Luke 14:26] love God above else…above else!